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Ouch. Fuck. I told Ben that I want to see him, but when I make the effort to travel all that way to see him, and when I get there I'm alone all the time. He gets home from work, complains that I haven't done the dishes or whatever, and goes to play with his car. He spent most of the time I was up there playing with his car and avoiding me. I pointed out that him avoiding me when I had made such an effort to be with him really fucking hurt and he replied that I should not bother coming up to see him then. Evidently rather than seeing the error in his ways, and that being so self centered might actually hurt me, me leaving him to play with his car [whilst still giving him money] seems like what he would prefer. You see, any problem I have with him is seen by him as my problem because I'm the one who doesn't accept it as just the way it is. Of course successful relationships are ones where you listen to each other and try to solve things rather than ignoring them. Oh the irony in that he complains that I say more in here than I tell him, of course it's probably just that he's not fucking listening to me when I try to tell him things. I've seen how apathetic he is at the prospect of us breaking up.
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